One Eye in the Mirror
by RC DeWinter
Title
One Eye in the Mirror
Artist
RC DeWinter
Medium
Painting - Digital Oils-paintoggraphy-photopainting
Description
Copyright 2014 RC deWinter ~ All Rights Reserved
Tinseltown Clown
Juggling, turning cartwheels,
I entertain every day the sun shines,
which where I live is nearly always.
I wear the gaudy motley, cap and bells
and shake my rattle for the crowd;
it works - they laugh and then dismiss me.
That's how I want it.
This is my comfort zone.
Comedy's my best defense in this,
the shallowest of pools known to man.
In a place where real doesn't exist
there's no point in the sincere.
No one would buy it anyway,
so I sell what sells.
My tricks have never failed me,
my legerdemain is legend.
Only when alone - which isn't often -
with seven televisions blaring
to annihilate the silence
do I strip off my bright armor
scrub away the greasepaint
and descend to who I am.
After decades of denial and repeated reinvention
I wonder just how much of me is left.
If I concentrate - and depending on
the quantity of cactus juice I've swallowed -
I can find that skinny kid whose brain was trained
and beaten into something to be proud of
by those solemn blackrobed men
on a ghetto mission from God.
I even went to college
but so what?
Inside this big top brains and a dollar
will get you a fastfood burger, nothing more.
My son the lawyer visits me from out of town.
When he does I pull up what's left of the serious me
and try to talk to him, to be a dad;
he doesn't recognize that man.
If I had a regret that would be it, but
you gotta play the game to stay alive and so I do.
I made my deal; I'm happy with it
as long as there's enough tequila.
I go to parties most of you can only dream of,
I have five women and a schedule for each.
I have these little statues on a shelf,
the proof of my survival in the tank.
I'm a clown in whiteface but no Pagliacci.
No tears, no tragedy, no opera - soap or otherwise.
~ copyright 2014 RC deWinter
This portrait has been FEATURED in too many groups to list.
Thanks to the group hosts for their encouragement and support.
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June 22nd, 2014
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